Skiing

Sorry for such a bad mood on Tuesday. That's what happens after eating a huge pack of cookies. So to prevent such days I am announcing a new challenge STOP THE SWEETS for 15 days. This means during Christmas I am not allowed to eat any cookie, sweet etc. Well, actually, I usually gain a lot during the holidays, especially from all the bad carbs, so this time I am saying STOP to: cookies, sweets, chocolate, cakes, white bread (sometimes I have cravings for it), sugar, jam... Instead I can have: fruits, nuts, yoghurt... Hm, so little dos and so much don'ts. I know, I know, life is unfair.

I think I love skiing. I like being in fresh air and just love that sliding feeling. However I have fear of height so not very much into downhill skiing. I usually choose children route for downhill skiing if there are no flat tracks for skiers. I like the snow, when it is not so freezing outside. Last year I was at some small skiing resort in Lithuania (I mean in my own country :D). We had been there for 4 days, but these days were wonderful. Sure, the second morning I couldn't get up, as all my muscles were hurting, but I had to, as my friends, very sporty girls, didn't feel any pain and got up without a trouble. The skiing routes were not long, as Lithuania doesn't have mountains, just hills. All the routes finished on the frozen lake. And the resort was in the forest, far from the city, so it was very relaxing, quiet and full of exercise 4 days. There are some photos from that trip. In the first one - my friend, she hasn't fallen down, she is posing :) The second - that's the frozen lake and the dark spot on it - me. And the last one - me. I guess then I weighed about 87 kg, so not very flattering photo. And the thing on my head is a hat, and actually it looks nice when I don't wear it :)

So after I had found out about my love to skiing, I decided to go to a skiing trip again. However this year there is no snow at all... Maybe I should visit the Alps in Austria or Slovakia and cope with my fear of height. An idea for future consideration. Have a good weekend :)

"Stop the Sweets" Day 1/15

Blame the season

Warning: Searching for inspiration, stop reading right now. Otherwise you could get unmotivated and bored. (instead visit Ails, Brooke, Rae or Donna)

I am afraid to weigh in again. I have to admit - I have no willpower. Last week was horrible food and exercise wise. I was eating all the time, then feeling heavy and not going to gym. Every day last week I was lacking energy, sleepy at any time of the day. In the evening I couldn't get sleep, just lying in the bed with my eyes open and in the morning I couldn't get up, was late to uni, then after uni, I immediately went to bed, as was deprived of sleep, then got up late in the evening, ate smth bad and unhealthy and in big quantities, after that tried to read some textbooks, do my assignments, however didn't manage and got back to bed to get more sleep, but unsuccessfully as my stomach was full and didn't let me sleep. And same things were happening every day. God, I must hate myself a lot. Whole week I was moody and getting questions from my friends what is going on with me? I felt sad and lonely, miserable. Sure, I can blame PMS for it's tricks, I can blame the winter for the cold weather, but deeply inside I know who is guilty. I am the one. I have really gained some more kilos, I even can see them sitting on my hips, stomach, cheeks, chin. Hate that feeling. I don't want to get back to the very beggining.

Not very motivating post today. Sorry, I think I have lost my motivation, if I ever have had one. I need to find it again ASAP. Do you know why we like reading other blogs? We need motivation and if someone gets lucky finding it, s/he shares it and we might get motivated too. Just might... This weekend I have read many motivating posts, found new amazing girls with their amazing blogs and nothing has happened, I still have zero motivation. I know, I am not going to inspire anyone, even myself. Sorry again.

How do you cope with stress? As my usual way to do that is eating. These days have been really crazy and stressful for me. Next week I have two exams and must deliver my term paper, which I haven't finished yet (just 3 pages from 25). I am soooo bad, I know. So if any of you knows a good way to fight the stress, please let me know.

About those inspirational blogs I have mentioned. First of all Ails. Magnificent girl, who in one year has lost 26 kg. Read her one year anniversary post, if haven't. Doesn't she look beautiful? :) Other girl is Brooke. She has experienced some troubles, but now she is back on track. That's where the real inspiration is - read her today's post. Last, but not least - two girls, two online friends, two WW models. I think you know who they are: Rae and Donna. They are doing great, even WW mag thinks the same ;) Actually I have realised that most of bloggers now are doing just great. Maybe because of the summer (as I read just Aussies' blogs). Good luck to you all ever after.

How about the Christmas mood? Anyone listening to Christmas songs? I am... a bit :) However the weather is not very Christmasish (oh, gosh, I made a new word - I actually meant Christmassy). I have too much work to think about the holidays. I remember then I was a kid, waiting for Christmas was amazing itself. Then I didn't wanted Christmas, I wanted the waiting. All the preparation, Advent calendar, songs, home decorating etc. And now I just have couple free days for what... major eating? Sorry, i am again becoming moody. Wish you everything the best.

In the evening when I can't get to sleep, I am dreaming. I wish my life is more organised and in control. And not just food wise. I would like it to be planned, eveything in order, then I could be more confident, less stressed. Sometimes dreams come true...

Some people have a foolish way of not minding, or pretending not to mind, what they eat. For my part, I mind my belly very studiously, and very carefully; for I look upon it, that he who does not mind his belly will hardly mind anything else. (Samuel Johnson)

PS: I have "borrowed" the image above from Flickr member kulkuri. He has a lot of nice pics, especially ones with the small white poodle :)

Up and down, up and down, up...

I am the perfect example of yo-yo. I can't believe that I really this morning weighed 77.9 kg. 78 kg is the cursed weight for me. I can't get out from there. I was so sure I would have a loss this week. Was good with my diet, exercised 4 times, drinked water etc. And gained 1,2 kg. Vicious circle...

The weekend was good. I was back at my parents. I spent Friday evening at beautician (actually she was more likely to be a doctor than beautician). I needed some advice about my hair and skin. On the Saturday I had my hair cut, then eyebrows and nails done. I know most of you have manicure or haircut as the treat, but for me it is more like a try to look prettier. The other half of the day was spent working as a driver. My parents were going to some official party and asked me to give them a ride. And then I had to wait till the midnight to drive them back :D
Sunday was rainy and boring. I was reading a book mostly - The parfume: The story of a murderer by Patrick Suskind (original title "Das Parfum" - it's German). Was out for an hour - to play bowling. Today I got up with sore muscles - first I thought that the pain is because of exercising and just now realised it is from bowling ;)

These last 3 weeks are going to be hard to all. All the deadlines for everything. I hope I won't get sick.

By the way, I am changing deadline for my Christmas goal as 74 kg. I won't manage it so why I should feel stressed? So now I would like to weigh 74 kg on Valentine's day 2007. Wish me luck. And good luck to you :)